what for? 2.8.08

do i need protection? am i under conditions where i need to be protected?
does that mean i am incapable of doing things on my own?

you're a lonely soul.

with some of these thoughts going on now, at least with them going round and round inside my head, it keeps me off silent most of the time. not to mention some extra bad things happened to add up to the troubles, e.g. my phone falling off into the toilet bowl. i know some questions have their obvious answers, although some others have no definite answers at all.

so what am i really striving for in my life? what for?

yeah there are the answers. but at times when life does not know its way ahead, no answers seem certain. so what are the real answers to this question?

do you think you can find it?

do you know where the end is?

all these thoughts didn't come out of the blue. it had all to do with what i am currently dealing with and it's not much to an outcome i would like.

will i always be seeing you after this?

even if i want to... am i left behind?

can i catch up with you?

my faults of insecurities all this time...

can i ever redeem myself?

can i ever have a normal, pointless and laughable, face-to-face conversation with you like long time before, like everybody else? without any other strange thoughts?

if not then... at the current state, am i running out of time?

what has fate brought for us today, here, now, at these circumstances, with those we are with at the moment?

in the end even if neither of us prefers so...

will you be off and away?

will everything be forgotten and simply put behind?

will this bond be broken?



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