tech ban = revised! 24.1.08

sigh~

remember the tech ban? dunno if it's really working, i kinda wish i'd go to monash, like, NOW. somebody hide this laptop from me. take its battery and charger and don't tell me. it really is part of me.

before i got better from the migraine which caused me to stay at KPJ hospital for 3 days last week, i managed to stay off from the laptop for a while. had no mood for whatever it was i used to love to do with comps before. when the pain is overwhelming in the head, the effect goes through the entire body, and this lasted for days. i think i fully recovered on tuesday, of which the day before i gotta go to kl to do some monash things. damn it's still stuck like that. i asked dad to send me there to ease things off for me since i was still not that fully recovered to go off on my own on public transport. i really wanted to settle it off. yet it's still like that. i have to go there, again, soon. damn they're delaying me.

until today i still get the naggings from everyone about me constantly looking at the computer and not taking care of my sleep & food habits which they all believed were the cause of the migraine. man, no one knew what the heck it was in the first place. the clinic first thought it was just the low blood pressure. just? still, not good. the head felt like it could blow up. i'd rather study the whole book of biology by Campbell than have that headache that was more right-sided, not to mention the vomit. painkillers didnt work much, CT scan revealed nothing, they even checked my brainwaves to see if it's normal. whew, i never thought i'd do a CT scan, with myself doing a report about it before in ausmat. 3 days felt long, groggy, full of hunger but of no appetite.

when i was back home, i was never more than glad to be out of the hospital. any place but the hospital, even though the tv was right in front of me (watching it gives me more headache anyway). back in my room, my laptop was gone, i thought, hm, i was banned from my laptop by my parents already, for sure. i wasn't in the mood for it anyway, i just wanna rest. so i did... and it felt good for a few days, though, never really had much to do.

i decided to ban myself from my comp. recently i've been turning it on more often tho. when did i start looking around the net again? these days it's become a daily thing again. is it bad...? come to think of it, my sister once said, "takpe kalau pakai komputer lame... tapi adik tu cara dia pakai tu tak betul, position dia depan laptop tu dekat sangat, duduk depan laptop tu lame sangat". eh? sorta. ok.. change it a bit. if i don't stare at the comp, don't be around the comp but stil keep it turned on, stil alright, then. i won't let the old ways repeat itself (like ignore SLEEP just because i love my COMP GAME more), seriously, the way the head hurt... dont want that to happen again.

so i cant really ban it, it's part of me. but i cant overdo it or anything, gotta take care of myself too. or else i'll end up troubling other people too if i fall sick again, not to mention to say how unbearable it felt like to be the one feeling the pain. no one else's fault, mine alone. ahah... do kick my ass if you see me play too much games or so eh wandie.. or to whoever it concerns in the future..~ LOL =D