broken 31.1.08

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i lie awake...
broken.

it was a reason i could not tolerate. i was gonna go and see her today, but there was change of plans. it was an act of selfishness above what i would've done for her. this is a friend i would hardly get upset at. one i trust a lot, close, a confidante. and although she apologized a few times, i still haven't given her a response till now.

i lie awake...
broken.

dad turned around to look at me. i knew what he thought at hearing that. i played dumb. he turned his attention back to the tv. i know what he may have thought. maybe i will never change. that could be right. i'm a pathetic person. what a girl...

i lie awake...
broken.

to worsen the feeling. technology is the worst thing ever made if it isn't the best. other than giving me really bad health, all over again, taking my appetite away, it's psychologically killing me. phone, laptop, tv, anything. phone calls i can't pickup, slow websites, bad tv reception. i hate technology. take it all away. i wanna be in a tropical island, enjoying the breeze on the sand.

i lie awake...
broken.

no one ever, cares, how i feel.

i lie awake...
broken.

can i go back to the books now? knowledge is what we can carry forever and they never let us down unlike other things. they were everything for me in school; i could still have those brainy days back if i wanted to. as pathetic as that could sound, at least 1 thing in my life is good.

pathetic is me.i am convinced now.