wonder.... 3.1.08

i got off wondering today...

if people considered me too nice..
or un-serious about certain things, if they think i can be so short-minded and childish..
if people think i can sulk so easily..
if they think they're too different from me, to be with me..
if i can ever make myself appear un-nice.. maybe it'd be good, since that really is who i am..
if people wil ever stop looking at me the same way..
the same old sickening way..
if people would ever give me a chance.. chance of acceptance and not the same perception or judgment..

i've been forgotten by many...
in the end i get left behind. and i don't know how to make it right anymore since i'm not sure what i'm doing wrong... and no one would help or by the very least would tell me...

maybe...
i wonder...
i'm meant to be alone forever
besides.. who cares

congrats to my sis who just recently got married... my new bro-in-law is quite interesting..huhu.. altho wedding preparations were hectic, it ended up well..
i'm happy for them..
since wedding stuff are always so complicated, maybe i should never marry anyone.. huhu... that's simplifying life enough, for me to live a life in simplicity...
let's just be happy for others...
and live a calm, comfy life.