dont know why 1.2.08

its been a while..
when was the last time it felt dis way?
~..
left out alone
socially depleted
on the bed she had pieces of papers
lil books, some clothes, some food
like a bed-turned mini work station
off into her own world

these days unlike the days they were before
as solemn as they could be
hidden tears
i cant find a reason for them to come out
i dont care how arguable
i dont know why
staring out in the open
i'm stuck here
i dont know why
i'm all alone
theres no one here
i dont know why
some things change
some things stay the same
i dont know why
symphony of the melody is a harmony
yet it doesn't make me happy
i dont know why
i'm here out in the open
and no one cares
i dont know why
feels like hurting myself
unknowing how
i dont know why
i dont know how
i dont know what to do
i dont know.