days go on 01 1.12.07

well the title sounds like this post is gonna be some sort of a short story i wrote or something... but not really, hehe... just for fun =)

here you go, days go on after ausmat's official ending last tuesday altho i wasnt there, we all know we miss each other... whether we'd say it or not. lately it's been hectic with university stuff like accommodations, passport, visa, medical check-up and so on... but deep down, there's that sad feeling that ausmat 18 days are already over. no matter what happened all this while of being in this programme since tha last 1.5 years... it definitely changed us all, huh? some stuff here we got that we wouldnt get anywhere else... as for me, in year 11, always during c++ class i'd find myself staring around the computer lab looking for the person whom i thought called out my name - IF - when truth was they were discussing about how the if-else etc stuff works. although i hardly remember how c++ works anymore... i wont forget about the experience learning it.

lol... maybe people think i dont care just because i didnt attent grand dinner, but God knows, anyway... i miss ausmat 18! i was pretty sure i would cry if i was there... somewhat like how i cried (quite a lot) during the last day of national service last year before everyone leaves for home. i watched performance from cheng and poji... well done, haha... cheng has been "practising" in class practically everyday anyway... well-deserved! he sorta reminds me of bob from mrsm bpj... i wont forget such funny peeps... even the not-so-funny ones... anyone at all that i knew here, i wish i wont forget them no matter what kind of person they are... coz whether their presence in my life had a bad @ good effect on me or not, it made a change in my life. bad attitude from bad people make ya realise how pathetic such attitude can be, could teach ya not to ever do that on others... etc. so maybe, in a way, i could thank such bad peeps for teaching me a lesson... and deep down, i'd wish they will at least do some good in the future... as i still believe there's goodness in everybody.

so no matter where life takes you, what you become, who you were or whatever you did or you do now, believe in yourself. life is full of wonders, if you keep your hope and faith, it keeps you alive. sometimes it wouldn't hurt to pick up the phone and call someone close to your heart and have a chat or meet up to do something fun - it awakens you. to have a friend.. or someone to count on.. someone to trust or even someone who trusts you.. let them in your life.. you could rise from the ashes like a phoenix, from a point of nothingness in life to some point higher - more meaningful than ever.

but at this point now, i'd say... i love ausmat 18 forever!!